my wee little telenovela-names have been changed to protect the privacy of the players.

It's April-joy. It's raining and dreary and cold outside. But inside...it's just starting to get interesting!
My roommate; we'll call her Auriel, has been living with me for almost 2 months. She has had, what i thought was her boyfriend, we'll call him Alan, since she moved in. I mean he's stayed over and what not-I didn't really question anything. Besides there's a bit of a language barrier and who wants to get into the nitty gritty early on. I mean, I like Alan so I had no problemo with him being around.
A week ago though-no we should probably go back to the Spanish Dinner night. The Spaniards planned a nice Spanish dinner, with the Spanish Omelette and Meatballs, and some sort of peasant salad. It was very tasty! ANd there were about 7 spaniards there. Lot's of espanol flying around the room. Well, it's at this dinner party I hear the first whisper of Auriel's boyfriend coming to visit soon.
In my head "boyfriend?...?...!" "WTF?"
Alan's roommate who was here for the dinner was telling Alan to "not sweat it." He had met his current girlfriend in a similar situation and they were still together.
Well I kinda thought I had heard things wrong. Ok, maybe I didn't really think that-but I was hoping.
My hope was a lost cause.
2 weeks later arrives Auriel's boyfriend...from Spain. I didn't actually meet him until his 2nd or 3rd day here because I spent some time with Alan and his friends and then had to work, etc. etc.....ok I may have been avoiding it a little. I mean I'm kind of partial to Alan and was feeling bad that he was having to deal with this. Alan, though, was feeling bad for Auriel because he said it had to be even worse for her! I think he's pretty smitten!
Well I'm feeling a bit weird-cause well, i know what's going on. And Auriel and her boyfriend are so different than Auriel and Alan...but that's not it. Then there was The Question.
"Is she being a good girl?"
In my head "well, define good."
I mean what am I supposed to do/say? I knew this was coming and knew I was dreading having to lie-cause let's just be honest, I can't hide things like I used to.
In my head "thank God we're all drinking!"
i say, laughingly, "Of course!" (inside my head-God don't hate me)!
Yes, I lied. But you know Alan probably would have said she was being a good girl! (and you can take whatever kind of meaning you want from that-I'm sure all apply!)
Part of me thinks he knows-or at least suspects. I'm not sure. But he doesn't respond well to hearing Alan's name-there's no language barrier in that one. It's all polite on the surface but there's an underlying...something that is not completely friendly.
With one more week of this Triangle playing out in front of my very own eyes-and bedroom door-who knows what could happen!

My own Telenovela

So I have found that drama is created for lack of anything better to do. People are just never happy-and instead of working harder on making things good or better-they'd rather help someone elses life become worse. I mean don't get me wrong-In work I'm never satisfied-I always want to be better and push myself. It's competitive-that's what I like about it. But I don't want to be thebest because I made someone else the worst through less than integral actions. I want to be the best because I do an awesome fucking job.

Times like these really make you step back and see that life isn't all about being the best-not if you're taking it home with you every day and letting it consume you. Slow down! The journey is important. The Spaniards are a great reminder of that for me. I may think they're a little more of the slow down mode that I would like-but they're enjoying life a little more than I. So I need to fix that, because I want to enjoy life to it's fullest. It's not always easy. Bills and responsibilities can put a damper on things at times. But that is a part of life. And sometimes we just have to face that and learn to live with it and pick out the good. It's there.

And so the story goes....

Well, I'm getting a new roommate. I'm excited about it. I used to hate change and uncertainty-I wasn't loving it when Deb started talking about this whole sublet thing-but it's actually worked out so far. Laura-sublet 1-has been awesome. I'm going to miss her and am excited to go see RENT with her! Her love for Indian people and hearing tidbits about her experiences there-was fun. And we laughed a lot! So she is moving out and Aurora is moving in.

Fun times-Aurora is from Spain! So, it looks like I'll be re-learning some spanish and she'll be learning some english. Or at least that's the goal...well one of them. I don't know much about her other than she is from Spain and has a couple of cute guys Spanish friends. So that can't be bad! She's here for 6 months and I think we will have some good times. And hopefully some barbecues on the back porch!

I have recently-well not found out exactly-but I have realized that I have become a much more appraochable person than I used to be. This is good. At work sometimes I wish it weren't the case-but you win some you lose some. I think that this might be why the subletting thing is working out so well. I really hit it off with Laura-and Aurora had emailed me saying that she found a cheaper place but really like me and thought I'd be nice-so she wanted the room. And at work-well, i'm not the hated one. And I can still maintain standards with the staff. There are times when I wish I were less approachable for some-and the reign of Dena fear isn't completely absent-but for the most part I'm finding a nice balance. Something I wasn't sure was possible. So I guess this is a yay me post-and well I needed one. Next week might not have me in such a positive outlooking mood.

i haven't been here in a while

February-haven't been here since last February. It's a short month. I don't like it cause it makes money tight-extra tighter than usual.

The State of the Union is on Tuesday. And I'm excited-this will be the first State of the Union in 8 years that I'm excited to watch and will probably be able to get through without throwing something at the television. How wonderful will that be? i mean our President is articulate! Who would have thought?!?! And he's a constitutional lawyer! I mean-wow a const. lawyer as the President-well finally someone who knows what the constitution is!

And Gay marriage-isn't denying this a clear violation of the 14th amendment and a blatant sign that we are recognizing an established religion's belief? Which would be unconstitutional because we supposedly have a separation of church and state. The things we worry about amaze me. People are starving, unemployed, losing their homes, dying of malaria, or thirst-and we're worried about 2 people we don't know and may never know our whole lives-getting married. Quite honestly those priorities are fucked up! Really?!? People!

Ok so that's my rant-I'm gonna get back to making my hanky panky's and cooking dinner. Yay for the Oscars tomorrow!

Ode to the New Computer

I love thee
Let me Count the ways
you type
and surf
and play
and show
and list
and view
and work.
Amen

tomorrow

The sun will come out tomorrow-bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow there'll be sun!

Guys and Dolls is on right now though!!!! Makes me happy-one of my favorite musicals. gotta love it.

Deb is soon to leave and I'll have a new roommate for a couple months and then either have to move or....I'm not sure. Deb's in the lease until October-she thinks-and if I can find a new roommate-then maybe I can keep the place. either way-I'm looking at a bunch of money needed come March. How did I move here a year ago with nothing??? I have no idea! I honestly don't. So, I know I shouldn't stress-it'll be much easier with me actually being here and not in Ohio-so I should be able to find a place, blah blah blah, but I also have to save money for the vacation in September.-Oi! It's just a lot. It'll all work out though. I know...

Slow Cooker wonderfullness

I love my slow cooker!
I'm making a roast right now-it smells great.
Cabarnet marinated. Potatoes, carrots, mushrooms, shallots, garlic. Yummy!
And I have good bread-I've been in a very big bread mood lately. Bread with soup-which i had yesterday. Now I feel the need to make some french onion soup in the slowcooker and get some french bread and good cheese...
Mac and cheese in the slowcooker... i haven't done that in a while. But I have to wait until I'm not sick anymore before I can eat cheese again.
I really want to make a pork roast and saurkraut in the slow cooker next. With New Year's just around the corner-maybe I'll do just that.

The slowcooker is like whiskey for food. You let it set and cook like whiskey ages (although whiskey ages a lot longer than the food cooks). But it just cooks and all the flavors get a chance to come out and meld together. The juices come out of the meat and flavor the vegetables. I also love a great spiced cider in the slow cooker. Apple, cinnamon, cloves, spiced rum and a little punch and orange zest! See why this thing is awesome-and your whole meal is in the dish. There's nothing else i have to do other than cut the bread when I fill my plate. That is also why this thing is wonderful-forget the multiple pot and pans! I clean the slowcooker and my plate. That's it! And it's pretty much dummy proof-it's really hard to screw it up. Just throw everything in and leave it for hours. I'm loving it!

Oh and Steve is coming on Sunday!!!!!